Disability Life
Tips on how to manage chronic illness in the face of stress and great change.
Today is a hard day. I am stressed at the mountain of things I need to be working on.
I am exhausted from another round of COVID (I am working on my 5th infection).
I have work for my freelance job to do and have spent the past two days revamping my website, but I am not finished.
Mostly I am scared. And fear brings stress. Stress that is prompted by the great change I am facing. The amount of money I need to make to keep my family on a good financial footing is obtainable while simultaneously feeling like it is a Mount Everest achievement.
And Stress brings lethargy. That feeling of not being able to do anything. Right now even the act of typing this blog seems incredible hard. So what do I do?
I turn to Dune, the book series.
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
I take up this mantra and repeat it to myself throughout the day.
I pray to the Morrigan and seek her warming connection that tells me she is there and her hand is in my life.
I take frequent breaks - resting by doing something I enjoy or laying down if I can't do a craft.
I drink more water so I don't get dehydrated.
I eat small frequent meals to combat a sugar high, then crash.
I call friends and tell them what is going on. Ask them to give me input and feedback as they listen to me.
But the fear remains. The stress grates. The lethargy demands a nap. That is why you must do whatever you do indomitably.
Indomitable means that it you cannot be subdued. You are unconquerable.
Indomitable spirits face these obstacles with single-minded tenacity that leaves no doubt greatness will be achieved. This change and this stress will do nothing but drive success, for I will have permit no other outcome.
Indomitable spirits are death to feeling like an imposter.
Who am I? Who am I to teach, to divine, to coach? Who am I to think that I can help others and they would pay for my help?
These questions die in the face of indomitable spirits. It kills them and destroys the self-doubt that drives them.
It answers these questions with a single-minded litany of accomplishments and qualifications.
I am Reverend Dia of Circle Sanctuary. Lady Dia of Willow Dragonstone Community & Coven., I have degrees, 20 years of experience, and a sacred calling to do the work of serving the people. Doing that work shouldn't force me or my family to suffer financially. I am a published, accomplished writer, and freelance work will come my way. I will not fear. I will watch with my inner eye as fear, doubt, and imposer feelings slowly fade away from me until they are gone and only I remain in my power of indomitability.
,I am indomitable.
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